Last LOve
Saturday, July 10, 2010
I gather my courage to call him the other day..
The moment I said "Hello"
He shouted, "Awak!! Mana awak pegi?? Asal num tukar tak bilang? Asal awak deactivate Facebook acct? Asal awak tukar tpt keje?"
I smile upon hearing him grumble just like a small kid, "Awak, kan saya dah janji tak akan ganggu awak kalau awak dah ada gf yg mampu menjaga awak kan? Awak kena jaga hati dia, ok."
It hurts everytime , I say, I'm letting him go.
At times I just dn understand my own feelings.
I let him go, yet I miss him..
I let him go, yet I'm hurt..
I've move on, with better career..
Yet still, I felt that he is missing..
I got what I wanted.. Career, family & freedom..
Yet I still find my heart is so empty w/o him..
At times I wonder, does he felt the same emptiness w/o me around??
Or is she so complete that makes him 4get all abt me??
Gosh... Letting him go is the hardest decision I've ever made.
But I'm happy to hear that he is ok & happy with her.
Specially for Norida;
I know U won't read this, But I just wanted to pour this out to u.
Firdaus, is a very nice guy. The most responsible guy I've ever been with.
Take good care of him. Do not hurt him, as I guess I've hurt him enough.
Love him as who he is. Accept his randomness & nonsense, which I believe it will make ur day like he does to me. U may erase me off his mind & heart. As I believe he us all yours to decide. REgarding my love for him, YES, it can nv be erase. But trust, I won't take him away from u.
Just do me this favour, take good care of him for me.
Lastly love,
Wati
jUst sMile :)12:49 PM