Life goes On.. I guess
Sunday, January 24, 2010
It have been some time since the last time I updated my blog..
Nearly a mth my enggagemnt have ended.. i'm moving on eventhough I miss him badly at times.. Every time I'm breaking apart coz I mz him too much.. I tend to tell myself dat I have to prove to him & his family dat I'm better off alone.. I can't give up. As I know dat he did not regret dis separation..
Last Fri, I went to HR interview. I talk to the HR mgr.. I was hoping dat everything was ok.. I just hope & pray hard dat me dream will come true.. I'm an ex-offender. Who is trying my very best to change & restart my life all over again.. & I guess CBTL is the best place.
I got my promotion as MIT.. But not yet comfirm where I'm going to have my training. See.. I'm doing good even after my enggagement end.. The only thing is I have to get over my own fear.. that is.. Shift Cert. Remember clearly 10yrs ago.. I was MIT in Burger King.. Remember clearly dat my break up at dat time affected my SHIFT CERT.. so i just didn't wan history to repaet..
I have to get over this fear of mine..
As an ex-offender.. I think I need to work dbl harder then a nrml MIT.. see the diff???
To Syaiful: Congratulations for ur promotion. I wish u all the best. Remember wat our ADM said??? remain as bestfren. Nv ever treat each other as Rivals.. I love u syaiful.. My dear Bestfriend..
jUst sMile :)9:27 PM
Its hard to 4gv HIm...Its jz even Harder to 4get Him..
Thursday, January 7, 2010

Its so hard..
As days goes by I begin to miss Him again... I miss him teasing me.. Miss fighting with him.. & wat I missed most abt him is.. the comfort dat he used to gv me..
Now then I realise dat actually I love him alot.. eventhough along our enggagement, we are cold towards each other.. but he make me feel comfortable coz.. I knew he is there in my heart.. But now... its over..
Os: B, I tak tau apa slh I & apa silap I, U minta putus tunang... Tapi apa pun jua I nak minta maaf atas sgala kesalahan I pada U.. Kerana I sadar diri ini tidak sempurna.. B, I rindu gurauan U.. I rindu gila2 U.. & perasaan yg terlalu rindu U ni membuat I menangis hampir tiap mlm & pg.. B.. I'm coping wif my daily life well but still I noe.. U are missing.. If all along our relationship... I've nv say dis.. & it might be too late for me to say dis.. "I love U" more then the world..
jUst sMile :)7:44 AM
Everything have ended..
Sunday, January 3, 2010

It finally over last fri...
At 1st I thought... I would be ok.. But then I realise.. My heart is so empty w/o U.. All the memories flashing back in my mind.. like it was jz yest, u were on ur knees crying & begging me to be with u.. I was foolish to believe dat U would nv ever leave me..
I was stupid to trust dat i'm the only 1 for u.. Now dat i knew, its all over.. I knew.. U are smiling & laughing also.. Gratefull dat the engaggement is over..
Nothing is left for me to say.. except this.. :
B, thank u for everything dat U have done for me.. Thank u for the fake tears of urs.. thank u for making me belive dat there's nowhere else i would rather be then in ur arms..
watever it is... I treasure every moment of us together..
jUst sMile :)6:25 PM