Goodbye
Tuesday, April 6, 2010
I met Hussien dis morn.. He said there's somthing dat he wanted to admit to me.. I knew dis is wat he have been hiding all along but i'm bearing with all his lies.. I know, a relationship dat full of lies will ended up to nothing.. I was still sick but i'm eager to see him.. Let me take a deep breathe b4 I start writing abt him..He told me to on my facebook & see his wall, he got a surprise waiting for me. then I just randomly said.. "u are attached".. He said ya. He told me dat he have been wif dis gal for 5yrs now. (can sombody tell me how I feel when I'm his within dat 5yrs?).. I was calm as always.. Eventhough I wanted to shout.. Siak ar.. we are enggaged for 1 yr.. we are together for 2yrs.. & he is wif her at the same time. for 5yrs.. How to express dis feeling?? Its not abt me loving him.. Its abt his lies.. His fake tears.. he did not jz lied to me.. but he lied to his whole family & my family. Imagine how big dis lie is?? The best part was,, He told me,, everytime he gt his pay.. they will have lunch at FISH & CO or SOUL GARDEN.. & imagine at dat time he keep on asking me for money.. He even told me. She ask from him $200 every mth. & HE GIVE!!! He even told me, if she call & he did not ans the phone, she will shout at him. *so dis is another NORLYN lah*. He used to tell me, "jgn pakai dedah2. I byr u nye hantaran bkn utk kongsi ramai tgk bdn u" & the best part was, her FB profile pic was only with her bra. So I asked him, Y are we enggaged at the 1st plc.. He said, he was pisst off with me. He jz wanted to play with my feelings coz he knows I'm a forgiving person.. WOW!! NOW I'M THE WALL W/O FEELINGS AGAIN!!!
2 thumbs up for him.. well done. He really2 can win OSCAR AWARD.. I just told him dis, "CONGRATULATIONS for havin her. Such a wonderfull gf. Good luck to you. Thank u so much for hurting me." I delete him from my friends list & even block him. I deleted his num from my phone.. Its true wat Abah said, Its TIME TO TOTALLY MOVE ON..WOW!! I'M REALLY2 A WALL W/O FEELINGS NOW!! Its ok.. Kata org, apa pun org buat kita harus bersyukur kerana kita tak bersalah. Kejujuran itu adalah 1 kemenangan. aku tahu smua ini akan berlaku.. aku dpt rasakan dia tak jujur pada aku. Aku yakin.. 1 hari nanti dia akan tahu apa itu pentingnya kejujuran. Ya Allah s.w.t, aku bersyukur kepada mu atas sgala dugaan yg kau berikan. Sesungguhnya aku tidak bersalah slama aku bertunang dgn nya dgn hati yg jujur & ikhlas aku mohon berikanlah aku pertunjuk mu. Tabah kanlah hati ku, Luruskanlah pendirian ku yg 1. Hanya kau maha pengasih & kau maha penyayang. Hanya pada mu aku Mohon kekuatan. Amin ya Rabbal alamin.
jUst sMile :)4:05 PM
