wonders...
Tuesday, June 15, 2010



There is this saying,
"Every1 will feel TRUE LOVE at least ONCE in their LIFETIME. & that TRUE LOVE can NEVER be FORGOTTEN, eventhough they have their own partners. Be it their new pertner, better then or worst then. That 1 TRUE LOVE can NEVER be ERASE."
Now I wonder,,,
I know the true love comes only once. I guess that once for me, have already past.
Its true.. He is hard to forget. Even remember every moments of being with him.
The fun, the bad.. The laughter, the tears.. EVery obstacles we've been through.
From walking or taking bus.. to riding a bike.. to driving his own car..
From cooking home food for his lunch to sharing 1 meal till we had dinner in LUXURY restaurant..
That's how I watch him climb his way up to success..
I wonder..If he still remember all those..
After he've left..
My whole world seems to change.. Can't seems to find a guy who is just like him/even similar to him.All the guys after him is just taking advantage of my life. I miss him so much. Miss the way he treat me. I'm always on his PRIORITY LIST. Haha..
Well that's all the past..
Now he is happy with his new galfren. I wish him all the best.
Though deep in my heart,,, I still believe he will comes back in my life.. just matter of time..
I had wierd dreams this 2wks..
Funny.. all involved afew of my colleuges.. very wierd..
1st dream was.. "C".. In that dream, we were holding hands. We are so in Love. Then.. when we are about to kiss,,, I woke up.
(Real facts: we are not close to each other. We didn't talk often too.. funny rite)
2nd dream was.. "N".. In this dream, he came to my outlet doing in usual stuff..after that.. he hug me from behind & make me sit on his lap. he kiss me on my cheek then I woke up.
(Real facts: we dn talk much when we meet.nothing but just abt work. coz he is my boss.)
3rd dream was.. "Z". this dream, we are in the same house. we cuddle each other on our bed. & he whisper, "I dn wan to loose u".. that wakes me up!!
(Real facts: we always quarrel everytime we met.)
Funny rite? dream of 3 diff guys,, & all this guys is not close to me.. WTF!!!
LUcky its just a dream. If not I would die of people gossiping abt me playing around with this 3 guys.. hahaha.
I've been thinking for the past few days.
Honestly I felt happy being single. Get to flirt around. Party with all my galfrens. Have fun together. BUt I realised somthing...
Its kinda true wat MAMA ODAH used to say,, "At the end of the day, U still need a companion so that U won't feel lonely when the night falls. A companion that U can cuddle the rest of Ur life with."
It's true I can't deny it. I did felt lonely at the end of the day..
I miss a guy whom I can talk to every night on the phone. A guy whom can cuddle me throughout my bus journey home. A guy who will kiss me on my forehead GD NITE.A guy who will say,"Its ok, I'm here for U".. Gosh... I think, I need a guy BADLY.. hahaha.
jUst sMile :)3:11 PM
My Stupid Relationship
Saturday, June 12, 2010


Didn't know why he came back to me..
Didn't know why he walked out again..
I'm just sick & tired of his games..
Now I guess, I better move on..
He said, he is busy..
How about me??
He said, he needs time..
3yrs is not time??
I just don't understand him now..
He changed alot since he came back..
As for me.. How I feel?
What I want?
Look....
I'm busy at work..
With all the stress..
& all the pressure from my superior..
I need to be loved..
Pampered..
Cuddle when I'm stress..
THat's all that I'm asking for..
I know in a relationship, guys always want their girlfriends to ease their stress..
out of problems & troubles when couples are together..
& I believe that's what girls wanted also..
It's just at times, girls tend to get a bit demanding..
Look again..
I'm a 26yrs old girl..
Single.. attached to.. (God knows who?)
Being an Asst Mgr of a High Profile Outlet..
Handling around 15 staff..
Of course,,, I want attention..
I want a lively relationship..
Full of surprises..
Full of Love..
Which I believe,, me relationship now is going down the drain again..
Silent... No news... Nothing..
Haiz... Morale of the story is..
WATEVER!!!
jUst sMile :)7:27 AM
Now... or Never..,
Friday, June 4, 2010

Honestly, i didn't know how to express this feelings..
Especially after hearing the news..
Syaiful was transfered to CPF building..
I'm transfered to Guthrie HS..
HOnestly & seriously...
I hate that place..
When I'm just starting to settle down in Holland Village, I was transfered to Guthrie.
BUt my boss, Norman, told me this
"Nv compared. Coz diff OM have diff style. Diff place, diff staff. Always remember to be patient. As getting promoted is not somthing for you to ask for. You need to be patient in order for all the upper management to notice you. I know you are good, this is just somthing that I believe & I want u to believe it also".
A very wise advice from a very wise OM right?
Which is true what he said.. I need to be more open to changes..
HOnestly,,,, another thing is.. I miss Syaiful..
I know he is not straight & I know that he is attached... & I also know that from the start we are just bestfriends..
Yet the way he treats me..
He pampered me.. is just the way I wanted to be pampered by a guy..
Every1 thought that we are together. Couples... As we are always seen together.
hmmmm.... how i wish he become straight. hahaha
jUst sMile :)11:44 AM