My Heart...
Monday, May 31, 2010

At times I wonder...
Did I really move on...Did I really didnt grieve over the past...Did I really let U go, sincerely...Did I really accept this fact that U are not mine anymore...I keep on wondering...Y???Do I accept him in my life coz.. I LOVE HIM..Do I accept him in my life coz.. I WANT HIM..Do I accept him in my life coz.. I ADORE HIM..Do I accept him in my life coz.. I'm afraid of this lonliness..Makes me keep on wondering...Y???After U've left.. I'm success by my own..After U've left.. I'm happier alone..After U've left.. I'm ease in my mind..After U've left.. Somthing seems to be empty in my heart..Still, I wonder...Y???There is this darkness in my heart...When I'm being success in my career...I got the freedom I used to dream off...I got friends surrounding me...Guys... dying for my love...But still darkness covers my heart...As I know... & I guess every1 knows...That I still, LOVE U...
jUst sMile :)10:41 AM
Love over Million Miles
Saturday, May 29, 2010
Di mula kan dgn "Bismillah.."Di sudahi dgn "Alhamdulillah.."
Berbicara dgn Abah smlm..
Mengenai hubungan kami..
Abah tanya, "Betul kakak suka kan Adzmin?"
Jawapan ku, "Entahlah.. kakak tak tau.. sebab kakak tak nak cita2 kakak hanya stgh jln"
Abah tanya lagi, "Kalau kawin, kakak nak duduk mana?"
Jawab ku sambil tersenyum,, "tu lah kakak ckp dgn abg Adzmin.."
"1 sabah, 1 da s'pore?" celah abah
"ehk.. mana abah tau??? hahaha" gelak ku
"kawin apa namanya tu? kalau tak duduk sebumbung? Minta lah transfer ke CBTL di sana" jawab abah tenang.. "tak payah kakak ckp pun abah tau apa kakak fikir" sambung nya lagi..
Sesungguhnya sorg ayah nampak tenang walaupun hati nya bimbang..
Bagaimana harus aku tinggalkan abah & adik hanya utk kebahgiaan aku sendiri..
Tanpa memikirkan mereka..
Aku bersyukur abah restui hubungan kami..
Tapi aku dpt merasakan.. hati abah berat utk melepaskan aku..
Ya Allah s.w.t, kenapa sehebat ini dugaan yg kau berikan? Aku pohon kan cinta yg suci & murni lahir dari hati yg tulus ikhlas, namun kau berikan cinta yg hadir beribu batu jauh dari ku.. Malahan disaat aku meraih kejayaan yg sukar utk aku lepaskan.. Ya Allah s.w.t, berikan lah aku kekuatan dan ketenangan utk memilih jln yg terbaik utk ku..
"Asalkan kakak bahagia, abah turut gembira.. Bersyukur dgn apa yg kita ada. Asal kan dia bertanggungjawab & mampu menjaga kakak, Abah tak kisah." sambung abah tenang
jUst sMile :)7:53 AM
All Those WOrds..
Monday, May 10, 2010


U told me U love me..
Told me U would be there for me..
Told me there's no one else in Ur heart except me..
Told me there's no where in this world U would rather be
then in my Arms..
U told me dat U would shield me from all the obstacles..
Told me, U love me as wat I am..
Told me, U adore me..
Told me, That I'm the last person U would ever loved..
BUT that was, 2yrs ago..
5mths ago..
U told me U hate me..
U refused to be there for me anymore..
U told me, U have som1 else in ur heart..
U told me, U would rather be in her arms then MIne..
U told me, to face all the obstacles alone..
U told me, I'm fat & Ugly..
U told me, U are ashamed of being with me..
U told me, U rather loved her more then me..
NOW..
U want me to loved u again..
U want me to 4gv & 4gt wat u've done..
U want me to be back in ur life again..
Back in my arms again..
Shield me again, agianst the obstacles that i've been facing..
U felt proud having me again..
I'm the last & only person U'd love again..
ME..
I dn BUY ur words again..
I CAN'T love u any longer..
I SURVIVE all the obstacles alone..
I DON"T need U at all..
So PLEASE leave me alone..
DN ever turn back..
Coz watever I am NOW, Is watever U have LEFT..
jUst sMile :)10:35 AM
My Heart
Wednesday, May 5, 2010


I start to miss You now..
How I wish You are here with me..
Smiling, cracking jokes while You cuddle me tightly in ur arms..
wats left is jz memories of us..
wats left is just pictures of our past..
You are 1 guy, I adore..
1 guy I'm proud to be with..
1 guy that I respect till the end of my life..
How could it be..
Now that You are far away from me.
I thought dat I would be strong..
You said dat I could move on..
You said dat I could have som1 better..
But Y??
Till now, althought I dn grive over the past..
But I grieve over the feelings of missing You..
Whats the used of having this career..
Whats the used of having this freedom..
When all I wanted is just having You by myside..
You teach me to be humble..
You teach me to be stronger..
You teach me to be lovable..
But all You did is to leave me..
Now dat You are gone..
I wish You all the best..
1 thing I promised..
You will ne be replace in My HEART..
jUst sMile :)9:31 PM