Beautiful Sunday...
Sunday, November 22, 2009

Woke up at 7am dis morn... Too use to it..
My eyes jz automatically opened... Hahahaha
My heart feel so empty.. besides my fiancee doing his MIA as normal.. He even off his hp for the past few days.. No calls nor news from him.. When I called his house.. his mum sounded cold towards me.. Haiz.. I'm so numb abt him.. I don't even have any feelings towards him anymore..
& honestly I dn even know Y I'm still engaged to him..
Last 2 days... My sister, send me a song.. "FUNNY FACE" by backstreet boys,,, I think.. She said every time when she heard dat song..It reminds her of me & my fiancee.. Which is true.. The song did remind me of him too. Its abt.. "everytime u mad.. I jz make a funny face" Os did always make funny faces everytime I'm angry or even cry..
But sadly dat was 10mths ago...
Now... he didn't even bother.. Our relationship have been dis cold towards each other for abt... 5-6mths.. we did not talk abt us.. the only thing we talk is arguements.. & now... I declare myself as single.. As I am single for the past few mths.. No conversations.. No dates... No outing.. Nothing btw us except ARGUEMENTS & HATRED.
I'm so numb..
Deep in my heart......... I still have my ex, FIDI... I love him so much.. I remember how he treat me.. I'm always on his PIORITY LIST.. Hahaha.. But dat was the past.. Now we are just norm frens.. Even we are apart... to be honest.. I can't live w/o him.. A day w/o his msg or calls is driving me crazy.. & he didn't noe anything abt dat..
& every time I go crazy coz he is not arnd.. Every one thought dat I mz my fiancee.. But actually not.. Haiz.. I really can't live w/o him..
Its a very beautiful Sunday.. & later today... got to go to my mum's plc to celebrate her adv bday..
jUst sMile :)8:44 AM